An obsession

I think I am going crazy! I have not felt this attracted to anyone in a long, long time. I blame it on hormones. Having no sex for the last 830 days will drive anyone crazy but apparently it drives normally rational people like myself absolutely nuts!!! Talk about pon farr!

I can't get him out of my mind! I see him in my dreams and I think of him the rest of the day. But guess what? I am not in love with him. I am simply swimming in lustful thoughts all day! Is this how it is for men? If so, then how do you get anything done? It is so difficult to concentrate.

Even in my dreams he is far away, out of reach.

I know from experience that so long as he is unreachable these thoughts will continue to spin through my head. That once he becomes a friend I am able to regain my control. Once I get to know him as a friend he becomes "untouchable". So long as he remains elusive, I continue to have lustful thoughts. More than anything now I REALLY want to be friends with him.

Rumor has it that he is involved with someone (or two) at the moment. If so, I don't want to get in the middle of that --- unless he is amenable to something with me, that is, hehehe.

But seriously --- short of hooking up with an old fubu, friendship with him is my best solution.