Indifference

Your indifference bothers me. It's like an itch I can't scratch. I get it. There are just people we don't hit it off with --- the vibe is all wrong or something.

Or maybe you really have intense privacy issues and you feel that I have invaded your privacy. If I have I do apologize. I knew going in that you may react adversely to my overtures of friendship. But nothing ventured, nothing gained, right?

You are not very communicative, it seems. But maybe that is just with me. Your friends tell me that you actually do talk a mile a minute when the chemistry is right and, apparently, it isn't for us. Joey and I, we haven't really had a chance to talk much when face to face, but on the net, we manage to talk up a storm. So, yes, the chemistry is there with him.

The chemistry I am looking for is friendship. I don't really expect anything more ... especially considering my situation.

That I find you attractive is a given. That you DON'T find me attractive is obvious. At least, I'd like to think you don't find me repulsive. I can't help but think at times that it isn't even just my appearance that turns you off but my personality as well. I may come on too strong. This is not to say that I have been pursuing you, 'cause I haven't. It is just my realization that I have a very strong (sometimes overpowering) personality and it may, at times, scare people.

You may think I only like you because of your current popularity and I will be honest. I like you initially because I admire your talent. And then I got to like you more when we had short chats and text exchanges. Recently, though, it seems like you've been giving me the cold shoulder and it bothers me ... but not enough for me to pursue it.

Just to set the record straight ... I don't watch the play because you are in it. That is incidental. They could replace you and I would still watch it. I actually find it interesting when different people play the same role. I am curious to see the "attack" on the character. I am rarely disappointed.

I will try NOT to get affected by your indifference. There are other people who are happy to see me and enjoy my company. I need not force my attentions on you. Sometimes I may still get the urge to text you. I hope you will forgive my lapses. The offer of friendship still stands.